FAITH MOVES MOUNTAINS // MATTHEW 17:20
During our DTS session today we were asked to give a short version of our testimonies in front of the whole group. It was inspiring to hear how people had come to know God and what they've been through during their lives. Some of the testimonies were very emotional and had such a strong impact on me. I also seemed to relate to a few of the testimonies shared and they somehow brought up past memories and emotions that I had tried so hard to forget about.
I struggled so hard to just ignore these memories and emotions that were suddenly coming back and I felt like I needed to do something about it. I didn't yet know any of the leaders well enough to express what I was feeling so I felt extremely trapped. With no where else to go I decided to go to the prayer room which is a small room situated on the campus with worship music playing constantly. In the emptiness of the room my emotions just overwhelmed me, I was in so much despair and emptiness and I just cried out to God. I asked him to free me and to just be with me right there. I was on my knees crying and as I was asking God to be with me I heard a voice in my head saying, "When you're sad come to me. When you're happy come to me. When you're confused come to me. When you need healing come to me." I didn't know if it was God or just me but as soon as I heard these words a song came on called Lay it down by Will Reagan and United Pursuit. The lyrics to the song were so significant. They were, "Bring your worry, grief and pain... Lay it all down at the feet of Jesus".
I knew straight away that God was trying to teach me something important. He doesn't want us to confide in someone or something. He wants all of us and our full attention and dedication. He wants it to just be us and him. Whatever we're going though, no matter how painful it is or as little it is, God wants us to bring it to him. He wants us to confide in him. We need to be open with him, speak with him daily and trust him with all our hearts.